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I started my agency about 18 months ago and we're doing pretty well. We just hit 40k MRR last month but I cannot shake the scarcity mindset and it's starting to affect how we operate. Like I'm talking about obsessing over every single expense to an unhealthy degree.
Last week my business partner wanted to upgrade our project management software to a plan that costs an extra $200/month and I literally spent two hours building a case for why we didn't need it (fun factwe definitely need it) I just couldn't handle the idea of adding another recurring cost. She was pretty mad at me and I fully understand here I just don't know the reason behind me being like this
I grew up pretty broke and bootstrapped this thing on like 3k and now even though we're profitable and growing I still operate like we're one expense away from shutting down. I review our business checking account basically every day. I still use a personal card for a bunch of business expenses because I feel guilty putting them on the company card even though that makes no sense whatsoever
My partner thinks I should talk to a therapist about it which honestly might not be a bad idea but I'm also super curious if anyone else deals with this? Like at what revenue point did you stop feeling like every dollar going out was a personal attack? Or does it never go away?
The ironic thing is I'm probably COSTING us money by being so cheap since we're definitely underinvesting in tools and people because I'm too anxious about everything? Anyone has any tips on how to improve with the way I'm dealing with everything? Thank you
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